i hear you talk and i just laugh..

I used to have utmost respect for you for you really are phenomenal. As I once said, "you're the man". But what happened? A few 'hits' here and there and you suddenly changed. You cared not about the real essence of what you're doing, but concentrated now on what might actually make you even more popular. Humble? You? Maybe then.

You said it yourself, and i quote "dapat nagrerespetohan tayo, dahil sa respeto magmumula ang magandang pagsasama". Haha. I stopped respecting you the moment I knew 'bout what you did.

Whenever I hear you talk, I'm sorry but I just think it's full of crap. I somehow do not believe you now. I could care less of what you think and what you say.

Sigh.

Few words of advice. Don't be so full of yourself. Don't do things for the sake of doing it. Don't pretend that everything's okay coz they're not.

Respect is given to those who DESERVE it.

Respect may be EARNED, but once you lose my respect, huh, good luck na lang.

hard not to fall..

i simply admire you
smiling whenever i see you wrinkle your forehead
twitch your nose
and see your eyes disappear when you laugh
i could spend all day just like this
admiring
liking
loving
you

from a distance.

there's a thin line between consistency and stagnation..

Disappointment enveloped me as I reviewed some things which I had done. I seriously thought that I'm finally doing good, but reality somehow sneaked up against my sleeve and sent an instant message to my brain and made me realize that I'm actually going nowhere. I need to work doubly hard.

Amp.

False brotherhood sucks big time. You stopped being my friend long time ago. Thanks for being so open-minded to call me judgemental. Never did you listen and tried to understand the points I'm trying to give out. Respect? It's only given to those who deserve it. As for you, I'm gonna at least try and be civil whenever I shall work with you. One more thing, try to think on your own. Don't let anyone or anything fro that matter control your actions, let alone your personal decisions. Read: PERSONAL. Haha.


***random writings in my yellow sheet of paper..

..news flash..

hindi pa pala bukas ang exam sa microbiology..wahaha..

not cool to be normal again..

Intriguing (rather nonsensical title) no?

I've been in super academic mode since the start of this semester and trust me, it's brought me good things (perfect quizzes, high scores in long exams, no missed assignments, etcetera etcetera). My only problem now is that I'm beginning to slack off again. Ningas-kugon kumbaga. You see, the term "normal" in the title is defined as Chris being the typical lazy student he is. I seriously can't stop my "winning streak" . Not now. Not never. Ampf.

Why all of a sudden I write about this? That's because I have a scheduled Microbiology 1 lecture exam tomorrow morning and I seriously have no clue on any topics to be reviewed. Yeah yeah. I know it's my fault (and Roy's too, by the way. He's my seat mate slash "ka-daldalan") but am I that bad (bad: not listening to a word the instructor blurts out. Lol) of a student to experience this shit? Haha. Karma, Chris. Thought bubble pops out and says : You better listen to your Pinoy Big Brother Contestant look a like professor, or at least try and pirate someone else's notes.

Sigh. Aside from my exam from hell tomorrow, I also have to deal with two group presentations, one for HumE1 (that's for tomorrow) and the other one's for NASC10. Bullsh*t yung latter. GE course na nga lang napaka dami pang requirements. Ayos lang sana if ALL the members of my group are participating. Oh well. I also have an exam on Humanities 1 (under Prof. Lalie Bucoy) scheduled this Wednesday. I'm not worried so much about this for I'm definitely enjoying her discussions. To cap off my incoming week, a Microbiology Laboratory Practical Exam would be happening this Saturday. Okay din ako dito. Bibbo kidds kami sa lab eh. Haha.

Dahil wala na kong magawa (or ma-aral for that matter), I'm gonna take this time to finish "the Zahir". Para na rin masimulan ko na ang "Tuesdays with Morrie", which I bought kahapon sa Powerbooks Festi (nagpa-member na rin pala ko.haha).

are two's always better than one?

nope.



but riding in two freakin' taxi cabs is soooo much better than riding in just one..especially when the "supposedly" spaceous FX taxi turns up with no seats in the back row..

umpakinanginangxeeet

..survey..

I know I've promised to take my blog entries seriously but I'm just too bored.

SEVEN THINGS YOU PUT IN YOUR BAG :
1.Pilot Green Ball Point Pen
2.Pilot Black Ball Point Pen
3.Pilot G-Tech 0.4 tip Pen
4.Yellow Paper
5.Felix the Cat notebook
6.iPod
7.extra shirt

SEVEN RELATIONSHIP Q'S.:
1. Do you like anyone?: Yeup
2. Does someone like you?: How am I supposed to know?
3. Last real crush?: Ask Teej. Haha.
4. Been lead on?: Nope
5. Been cheated on?: Nope.
6. Want a relationship?: Not now
7. Wanna get married?: In time, yes.

SEVEN FACTORS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
1.Water
2.Food
3.my Real friends
4.My Family
5.Music
6.Literature
7.God

SEVEN THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1.What to write here
2.Kelan titila ang ulan
3.Anung bibilhing dvds mamaya
4.What to wear tomorrow
5.Will the competition push through
6.Exam in Mcb1 (got no notes..boohoo)
7.When will I finish reading the Zahir

SEVEN OTHER THINGS:
Do You:
1. Believe in God? Yeup
2. Had a dream come true? Yeup
3. Read the newspaper? I try to read everyday. I get more out of broadsheets than watching news on the telebisyon.
4. Pray? Yeup
5. Have a job? Nope
6. Have braces? Used to

SEVEN HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Fallen in love? Yeup
2. Hated someone? Yeup
3. Swam in the dark? Nope
4. Been to a Bonfire? Yeup
5. Ran away from home? Nope
6. Played strip poker? Nope
7. Pulled an all nighter? Yeup. I'm looking forward to sleepless nights with nothing to do but write, write and write.

SEVEN THINGS IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE
YOU:
1. Cried? From laughing too much, yes. And also from getting a lil emotional during my conversation with 'My. Haha.
2. Had fun? Yeup
3. Been kissed? On the cheek. Haha.
4. Felt stupid? Nope
5. Talked to an ex? Not really an official ex, if you know what I mean.
6. Missed someone? Yeup
7. Hugged someone? Yeup. Mommy Rej and Bebekoh Thea.

SEVEN "SOUL" QUESTIONS:
1.Do you consider yourself kind? Usually. Haha.
2.Do you consider yourself moral?: Yeup
3.Do you consider yourself honest?: Almost always.
4.Do you hold any prejudices?: Nope
5.Are you spiritual or religious?: Yeup
6.Philosophical?: Slowly becoming one.
7.Would you steal under any
circumstance, be it for survival or
greed?: I guess with the assurance that I wouldn't end up in jail. Joke. Haha. Of course, I wouldn't.

it took me one sip..

Wrapped in my blue comforter while literally shaking, thanks to the wild wild breeze brought about by the stormy weather, coupled by the "number three" electric fan, I started sniffing my 10:00am coffee.The earthy aroma and feeling of warmth enveloped my senses and I suddenly felt calm amidst the pounding rain, howling winds and exaggerated rustling of leaves. Funny how caffeine has its effects on me. Ironically, caffeine eases out tension in my body, while stimulating my usually lazy brain cells.

I took my first sip and the warmth I felt from my initial sniffing creep ed through my whole body.

Upon gulping down the precious first sip, one thought suddenly popped in my head.

I've never invited you for coffee. We've never been on a date (yes, I don't count Mc Donald's-birthday lunches as dates) and I've never even asked you out for one. I frequented Bean Hub with this girl a year ago and I went out often with another girl way way back. Is it just me or I'm so not making an effort? Maybe we're just too busy. Or maybe I just know that that doesn't interest you. Maybe.

Two years of "knowing" each other and still no clear idea of who you really are. Disclosure. I still don't know you and you still haven't a clue of who I really am.

I haven't got any idea what you like and whatever you might write down in a "slum book". I know of only superficial things about you. I can't be that bad for not finding out ways to know you more right? Especially when I noticed that you weren't making any efforts to get to know me.

Call me unfair but I lost whatever feeling I have when I felt that you couldn't reciprocate the love I could give. I've loved before and I can proudly say I've loved and I loved greatly. Even came to a point where I loved so much but never really got anything. I know it's not fair to expect anything in return but this time, I need to stop being a martyr. It gets tiring, trust me.

Coffee. Sigh. I need another cup.

fair enough..i guess..

Twisted thinking of yours truly thanks to immaturity multiplied greatly by impulsiveness..

Maybe I should..

Sigh..

I'm being unfair..

thirty minutes to midnight..

yes i'm stubborn but not stupid enough to see that we're going nowhere..when will you get tired of feeling everything for me....love is a two-way street..we both need to feel it..i'm sorry for i'm not feeling anything..well i used to..

this has got to stop..i've had enough..i'm being unfair..

forget me..please..



originally posted last August 12, 2007.

drained..

physically..
emotionally..
intellectually..

boohoo..


it's been what, like more than a week since i posted something here..
nothing out of the ordinary has happened really..
everything has been routinary..
i'm kinda getting tired..of several things for that matter..

i'm still active in the clan despite of my attempts not to be soooo involved..duty calls..besides, i'm enjoying the company of my family..haha..family bonding anytime..

i'm really surprised with the way my academics are turning out..well,not really..see,i've been exerting effort towards my studies now as compared to the previous semesters,and in all fairness, exam results are in oh-so-good-shape..i hope i can keep this up..haha..i need to..i have to..i will..

call me selfish or whatever, but i'm fed up with people in my group in one of my classes..yes i was the appointed leader but you friggin people can look in any dictionary nad you would cerainly not see the definition of a leader as the person who does e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g despite the fact that there are 26 individuals in that group..oh my effin' jee..ampf..

pardon the messy entry..i am in no perfect mood for blogging..this is just for the sake of writing something here..also forgive my laziness to even just press the shift key for every starting letter of the starting word of the sentence..sigh..

close-open..

close - open..

close - open..

close - open..


ibubuka lang ang mga palad..

isasara muli..


madali diba..

sana lahat ganyan lang ka-simple..

close - open..

close - open..

..news flash..

I'm sleepy.


Sigh. What a waste of precious kilobytes. Haha. My eyes are starting to give up on me. Anyways. Huling Hirit sa blog. I'll be in LB Square tomorrow night with some friends. Inuman nah!

harsh..

I think I put too much pressure on the performers kanina. Fastforward. Sigh. I hate giving out assessments. I might have been a little harsh with the comments I gave earlier about the performance of the batch owsix. Blame it on my bad mood brought about by some very undesirable events which occurred earlier (re: on punctuality). From the deepest crevices of my heart, I apologize for whatever not-so-good things I blurted out. Keep in mind that I said those for the betterment of your future performances.

"Everything in life is a one-shot deal"
- Layeta Bucoy

I really enjoy my Hum 1 classes, thanks to Ma'am Bucoy's very animated way of teaching. It's actually one of the classes where I often become "bibo" especially when I really am into the topic. Ma'am Bucoy reminds me of my adviser back in Senior year high school (Hello Ma'am Joy!). The type of teacher who really wants their students to squish the answers out out of their brains. Tipong she gives a statement and you'll be instantly asked about your opinion or stand about this one. Magbibigay nang isang completely bagong set of words and be asked about how you interpret it. I really find this set0up shocking at times, but generally, it gives students the initiative to listen and really start thinking. I sooo love Ma'am Lalie now. Haha.


"Isa't kalahating tamad". "Isa't kalahating bastos". I was introduced to this "half-half language" two semsters ago thru one of the members of the clan. It's just funny how she manages to insert the phrase "Isa't kalahati" into every sentence she utters. Hay. Dahil miss ko na si Kris at ang kanyang mga "kalahati", eh I'll share with you some of the things I've learned from her.

• Half Chinese.... Half Garter....
• Half German.... Half Shepherd....
• Half French.... Half Fries....

Anf my most favorite one...

"Uy miss, CHINITA ka pala no... Half Chinese... Half ITA!" Ampf!

By the way, it's cool to know that someone other than myself visits this blog. Haha. Thanks Glecy! Hay, someone I personally know visited also kanina.

"We humans have two great problems: the first is knowing when to begin; the second is knowing when to stop."
- The Zahir by Paulo Coelho