6:50pm
Ako na ang kinabahan nang may nakapagsabi na nsa cr ka lang. Agad naman akong nagpunta sa sulok nang simbahan upang abangan ang iyong paglabas. Nakakasabik. Inantay kita ng ilang minuto ngunit hindi ka pa lumalabas. Malamang ginagawa mo lang ang ilang "mandatory girl things" pag nasa banyo. Shit. Bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko. Naalala ko tuloy yung unang beses akong sumakay sa Space Shuttle sa Enchanted Kingdom, sa di kalayuang Senerowza. Hay.
6:56pm
Patuloy akong nag-antay, hanggang sa may nagsabi sa akin na nakalabas ka na nga raw at tumungo na papalabas ng simbahan. Disappointment. Hmph. Taene. Gusto pa man din kita makita. Gusto ko din marinig kahit saglit lang yung boses mo. Kahit na sabihin mo pang "nakakatampo ka,alam mo yun..", ayos lang. Marinig ko lang ulit ang tinig na ilang buwan nang hindi napapakinggan nang aking mga taenga.
sabaw tong entry ko..promise..
I tried really really hard, as in hard like a diamond (ampucha), para maintindihan ang mga sinasabi ni Father Gabby (tama ba isfeyling o G-A-B-I dapat?). Hay. Wala. Wala akong naintindihan talaga. Sorry Papa Jesus (from here on now, let's address Him PJ ;p). Hindi ko pinakinggan. Mas pinakinggan ko pa ang sarili ko habang nakanta at ginagawan ng second voice with matching Pinoy Pop superstar oh di kaya'y American Idol kulot at adlib ang kantang Hesus.
9:05pm
Staring blankly out the window as the guys continued their chat. Ano pre? Yung ex ni ganito, na ex mo din dati, eh may asawa na? Si ano? Ampucha. Eh mas gwapo pa alaga kong surot doon eh. Boys will be boys. The usually cramped place looked big now that only ten people, excluding the waiters, occupied the dimly lit cavern. I'm not too familiar with this place, but it made me feel at home. Maybe a "home" is not exactly a place. Maybe it can be anywhere. A certain place where people whom you consider family is there, now that's home. But I'd still prefer my humble blue-colored abode anytime. (wink)
9:20pm
The gentle night breeze, greatly emphasized thanks to the speedy jeepney, touched my face and blew my once-again-out-of-bed-styled-hair. Lagi na lang bang hangin ang hahaplos sa akin? Kailan ko mararamdaman ang malalambot mong palad na dadampi sa aking mukha, kasabay noon ang tuluyan mong pagkuha at paglusaw sa kabuuan kong puso na pumipintig para sayo.
Shit. Kahit ako na-cheesy-han doon.
I slumped into a very uncomfortable monoblock chair right after finishing up my dinner. It was starting to rain and the wind is getting colder by the second. I looked at our newly-cleaned fish tank and was surprised to see that our flowerhorn has grown. I never was a fan of any fish (Dolphins are mammals, mind you ;p) especially those who look like they have cerebral palsy or whatever. I did somehow get attached to our Arowana, aptly named Ari (RIP), who was once the transient in the fish tank. Back in high school, I would not let the night end without me going near her tank and just stare at her. Her slim, savvy, monotonic features blended nicely with the blue light that I've placed atop her glass kingdom. I would take the time to really look at her and use that as a prompt for my day's reflection. Now I'm staring at the complete opposite of Ari. Pumpkin, I gave her the name a while ago, is a somewhat short, stout and very colorful. Funny, because I just said to myself that I'm gonna treat her the way I treated Ari. Hmm. Ari's gone. She may have been the best, but I can't do anything to bring her back. I now have Pumpkin, and yes, I can learn how to love her the way I loved Ari. Only, it would take time.
Double meaning ba..? Hindi ko nga magets kung bakit ko sinulat yan eh..Told you I'm sabaw...
Ako na ang kinabahan nang may nakapagsabi na nsa cr ka lang. Agad naman akong nagpunta sa sulok nang simbahan upang abangan ang iyong paglabas. Nakakasabik. Inantay kita ng ilang minuto ngunit hindi ka pa lumalabas. Malamang ginagawa mo lang ang ilang "mandatory girl things" pag nasa banyo. Shit. Bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko. Naalala ko tuloy yung unang beses akong sumakay sa Space Shuttle sa Enchanted Kingdom, sa di kalayuang Senerowza. Hay.
6:56pm
Patuloy akong nag-antay, hanggang sa may nagsabi sa akin na nakalabas ka na nga raw at tumungo na papalabas ng simbahan. Disappointment. Hmph. Taene. Gusto pa man din kita makita. Gusto ko din marinig kahit saglit lang yung boses mo. Kahit na sabihin mo pang "nakakatampo ka,alam mo yun..", ayos lang. Marinig ko lang ulit ang tinig na ilang buwan nang hindi napapakinggan nang aking mga taenga.
sabaw tong entry ko..promise..
I tried really really hard, as in hard like a diamond (ampucha), para maintindihan ang mga sinasabi ni Father Gabby (tama ba isfeyling o G-A-B-I dapat?). Hay. Wala. Wala akong naintindihan talaga. Sorry Papa Jesus (from here on now, let's address Him PJ ;p). Hindi ko pinakinggan. Mas pinakinggan ko pa ang sarili ko habang nakanta at ginagawan ng second voice with matching Pinoy Pop superstar oh di kaya'y American Idol kulot at adlib ang kantang Hesus.
9:05pm
Staring blankly out the window as the guys continued their chat. Ano pre? Yung ex ni ganito, na ex mo din dati, eh may asawa na? Si ano? Ampucha. Eh mas gwapo pa alaga kong surot doon eh. Boys will be boys. The usually cramped place looked big now that only ten people, excluding the waiters, occupied the dimly lit cavern. I'm not too familiar with this place, but it made me feel at home. Maybe a "home" is not exactly a place. Maybe it can be anywhere. A certain place where people whom you consider family is there, now that's home. But I'd still prefer my humble blue-colored abode anytime. (wink)
9:20pm
The gentle night breeze, greatly emphasized thanks to the speedy jeepney, touched my face and blew my once-again-out-of-bed-styled-hair. Lagi na lang bang hangin ang hahaplos sa akin? Kailan ko mararamdaman ang malalambot mong palad na dadampi sa aking mukha, kasabay noon ang tuluyan mong pagkuha at paglusaw sa kabuuan kong puso na pumipintig para sayo.
Shit. Kahit ako na-cheesy-han doon.
I slumped into a very uncomfortable monoblock chair right after finishing up my dinner. It was starting to rain and the wind is getting colder by the second. I looked at our newly-cleaned fish tank and was surprised to see that our flowerhorn has grown. I never was a fan of any fish (Dolphins are mammals, mind you ;p) especially those who look like they have cerebral palsy or whatever. I did somehow get attached to our Arowana, aptly named Ari (RIP), who was once the transient in the fish tank. Back in high school, I would not let the night end without me going near her tank and just stare at her. Her slim, savvy, monotonic features blended nicely with the blue light that I've placed atop her glass kingdom. I would take the time to really look at her and use that as a prompt for my day's reflection. Now I'm staring at the complete opposite of Ari. Pumpkin, I gave her the name a while ago, is a somewhat short, stout and very colorful. Funny, because I just said to myself that I'm gonna treat her the way I treated Ari. Hmm. Ari's gone. She may have been the best, but I can't do anything to bring her back. I now have Pumpkin, and yes, I can learn how to love her the way I loved Ari. Only, it would take time.
Double meaning ba..? Hindi ko nga magets kung bakit ko sinulat yan eh..Told you I'm sabaw...
plans ni chris
- pinlano ko na mag take ng isang multimedia course oh di kaya'y writing course sa Maynila.
- pinlano ko na magpapayat, magpapauti, magpakinis, at magpa-discover.
- pinlano kong magka-girlfriend bago mag 12 years old.
- pinlano kong pumuntang Singapore noong bakasyon.
- pinlano kong basahin ang Harry Potter and the Deathly hallows.
- pinlano kong iplano ang buong buhay ko.
- bs bioloy an kurso ko ngayon.dito sa uplb.ngunit next sem, matutupad na ang pangarap kong maging isang BA Communication Arts Student.
- pumayat ako ng konti. pumuti ako ng konti. kuminis ako ng konti. napa-tv na ko ng konti.
- nagka girlfriend ako bago ako tumungtong ng high school.pero 2 months lang kami.
- nag lts2 ako nung summer kaya hindi ako natuloy sa Singapore. Gustong gusto ko pa man din makita yung leon na sirena. Ampuchanamanow.
- salamat kay Ma'am Bucoy eh nalaman ko na na namatay sina Snape, Lupin, Dobby, Fred at natapyasan nang taenga si Fred, magiging mag-asawa si Harry at Ginny at mabibiyayaan sila ng tatlong supling. Spoiler oh.
- hindi ko maplano ng maigi ang buhay ko. Andaming nagbabago. Ang alam ko lang sa ngayon, kahit na gustong-gusto ko na mangyari agn ilang mga bagay-bagay, kapag hindi pa nakasaad sa log book ni PJ na mangyayari ito, hindi tala ito mangyayari. Sabi nga Niya, in His own time daw. Hmm. Tatlong taon na akong walang relo, magkaroon kaya ng dipirensiya pag bumil at magsuot na ulit ako nito?
listening to: Show me the Money - Petey Pablo
reading: NASC10 hand-out. amphness.
reading: NASC10 hand-out. amphness.
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